Away from Patterns

These patterns I seem to have unconciously developed.... where did they come from? Does it really matter at this point? Probably not. All I know is this- it's time to break them, and this I've known for quite a while, yet it seems I've thought it easier to ignore the obvious..... Here we go- not guaranteed to work but change is inminent at this point..... I cannot stop it and what's even better I don't want to!