So I’m back in my office. The Atlanta office, the office that has all my pictures; the kids’, the fake boyfriends’, my trip to Colorado, pictures of green things. And I realize that this isn’t really my office anymore- not really anyway. These guys, Napoleon and all, have me all moved and tidily packed off to Charlotte. As if taking a person and shipping them off is that simple. But it is that simple. To them it is filling a position that is severely lacking. To me, right now, is leaving everything that’s ever come closest to being “at home.” How do I explain that? And even if I did it’d only be words coming out of my mouth; words that wouldn’t even register in their brains or anywhere else. You could say NO you say? Right, I could say no- but that wouldn’t be the best, smartest or easiest move on my part either.
Come to think of it, it wasn’t too long ago when I sat in my tiny patio and thought that the solution to all my problems then would be to start anew, to start fresh somewhere far away where nobody knew me and it’d all be better. And here it is; although Charlotte isn’t exactly far away. Charlotte isn’t exactly new. So I was thinking the other day- while talking to myself- here it is! A chance to do something I was actually wanting to do not too long ago- but it was long ago enough to have forgotten why I wanted to do it in the first place. Kind’a too far back to remember right now even though it was 2005.
Maybe I’m mixing my personal stuff with my business stuff. I should listen to my own brand of advice. One of the young ones here (my favorite young one even though he's started sporting a beard since his trip to Israel) is facing the moving dilemma after his training is completed. His move won’t come until well into Summer 2006 probably but it’s weighing on him heavily. He keeps basing his relocation on the # of miles away from his girlfriend; a girlfriend who refuses to even entertain the idea of even thinking of moving here to be closer to him even though she doesn’t have a job or any other responsibility to keep her where she is at right now. A girlfriend who refuses to even speak about anything further than 2 months down the road even though she claims she wants a family and all the stuff that comes with it- with him supposedly. A girlfriend who gets further away the closer they get- or something like that. A girlfriend who’s just not that into him at the end of the day; a fact he refuses to see, because perhaps it will show him his own weaknesses and the fallacy of the human condition when it comes to significant others who refuse to see us as we see them, whom we refuse to see in plain light as they see us.
Come to think of it, it wasn’t too long ago when I sat in my tiny patio and thought that the solution to all my problems then would be to start anew, to start fresh somewhere far away where nobody knew me and it’d all be better. And here it is; although Charlotte isn’t exactly far away. Charlotte isn’t exactly new. So I was thinking the other day- while talking to myself- here it is! A chance to do something I was actually wanting to do not too long ago- but it was long ago enough to have forgotten why I wanted to do it in the first place. Kind’a too far back to remember right now even though it was 2005.
Maybe I’m mixing my personal stuff with my business stuff. I should listen to my own brand of advice. One of the young ones here (my favorite young one even though he's started sporting a beard since his trip to Israel) is facing the moving dilemma after his training is completed. His move won’t come until well into Summer 2006 probably but it’s weighing on him heavily. He keeps basing his relocation on the # of miles away from his girlfriend; a girlfriend who refuses to even entertain the idea of even thinking of moving here to be closer to him even though she doesn’t have a job or any other responsibility to keep her where she is at right now. A girlfriend who refuses to even speak about anything further than 2 months down the road even though she claims she wants a family and all the stuff that comes with it- with him supposedly. A girlfriend who gets further away the closer they get- or something like that. A girlfriend who’s just not that into him at the end of the day; a fact he refuses to see, because perhaps it will show him his own weaknesses and the fallacy of the human condition when it comes to significant others who refuse to see us as we see them, whom we refuse to see in plain light as they see us.
2 comments:
You can't move Atlanta lkes you too much.
I'M TRYING TO NOT MOVE.....
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